a lethal raft

Photo Essay by Amiya Hisham

In the year 2020 the nether alleys of my mind grew in swallowing perspective and wrapped around my ankles. Old blue voices rasped and seethed at my coming. If I lingered too long, red-eyed guards would awaken and throw me in with them. I did not feel creative but I could trick the automaton that grew between my muscles and bones. This is how I built the raft.

My father probed the molecular secrets of plants. After his demise, traces remained in the vacuum of our house, in the form of countless texts and papers, specimen bottles, whiteboard markers and OHP sheets. Our home is a small menagerie of obsolete technology and sentimental people. Among the inanimate relics, there was an assortment of glass laboratory ware, to the bottoms of which still stuck fast the residues of experiments. Each conical flask immortalised a trial and an unexpected result. ‘Useless’ memories were the jetsam and flotsam that carried us on the tide.

After the meme waves had subsided and the dalgona froth had blown over, discomfort, the old devil gleamed on the horizon again. I grew frantic for words, a book, a dead hero. And then Camus walked by, his wise gaze fixed and his cigar lit, behind the millions of new ghosts. He whispered through stubborn ink ‘Create Dangerously.’ The plague has only raised the curtain on the fragility of our existence. We were always fragile.

A Lethal Raft is a memory of landscapes, doomed to float and hard to perish- it’s a microcosm of the environmental and humanitarian crisis. It is the same unwieldy plane on which human brilliance sails, on which ideas are projected, formulae are worked and reworked. Scientists, poets and artists keep rowing the craft with hope. It encases specimen and sentiment but in solitude is flimsy, hopeless, a contradiction, a memory doomed to float forever.

The lethal raft is made of plastic paper, an unassuming product that outlasts its parent, the Overhead Projector. It is polluting, but for the pondering artist the surface is vaguely useful.

Volume 09

clay | chlorophyll | crimson

Grass is green where you water it. LC’s words float along over Misch’s guitar. It’s a phrase that feels so obvious, and I’m sure those who tend to gardens know this more than most, but it seems to land more than before. The impact noticeable, memorable, echoing through my being. Perhaps we’re ingrained to think it’s greener elsewhere. This patch is the problem and not whether we’re watering it. The key is in the watering. How we go about this practice is what defines our patch of grass. No matter where we go, our patch is, perhaps, the same. Some attributes and characteristics have been changed but the essence is the same: Us.

Stepping into Volume 09 of imprint, marks our third year. I am learning that this patch of green that we have been tending to for the last several years will mould, shift, and sculpt. This depends on how we water it and allow it to take its own shape. It has already happened in wonderfully unexpected ways. There is only so much structure or shape we can predetermine. Beyond that, it will absorb what it needs and reject all that is unnecessary. And perhaps, in this practice, we are changed. Our grass is watered as we water that of our writing, our image making, our practice, our magazine.

From light to dark, rigid to supple, new to old, there is so much in between that is bright and vibrant and unexpected. The practice of our magazine has focused on being open to what we receive; being open to deeply listening to what is shared; being open to work taking us to new journeys. This volume, and this year, will be no different. We will continue tending to it as we have done, learning along the way, from past seasons and present ones.

And yet, I know it will be entirely different.
But still.
It will be watered.