my endless voyage

Digital Illustrations by Siddhesh Gautam

“At times I feel as if I am spread out over the landscape and inside things, and am myself living in every tree, in the splashing of the waves, in the clouds and the animals that come and go, in the procession of the seasons. There is nothing in the Tower that has not grown into its own form over the decades, nothing with which I am not linked. Here everything has its history, and mine; here is space for the spaceless kingdom of the world’s and the psyche’s hinterland.”

Carl Jung said this almost a century ago and I’ve always related to this thought but in a very different way. As much as this thought has kept me sane as an introvert who resides alone, at the same time it has always kept me friendly to the space around me. Yet wherever I go, I remain an introvert and try to recreate my own space. But this doesn’t mean that I am not fond of travelling. This doesn’t mean that I have no affinity for new environments. I still do enjoy the clouds, the moving trees, the whisper of the wind, and sight of the ever stable yet never stable sky. 

But I’m always in my own space outside of this space which exists.

This set of illustrations depicts this space around me. The space that I’ve created in my mind: the natural organic space. The space that no one can see or experience, but me. 

Wherever I go, I’m in my space: We were born together and will probably die together. I can’t imagine my life without it. This set of illustrations serves as my willingness to accept the new environment while clinging onto an old one. It might be strange to read or hear, but it’s only natural. It’s only me.

Volume 09

clay | chlorophyll | crimson

Grass is green where you water it. LC’s words float along over Misch’s guitar. It’s a phrase that feels so obvious, and I’m sure those who tend to gardens know this more than most, but it seems to land more than before. The impact noticeable, memorable, echoing through my being. Perhaps we’re ingrained to think it’s greener elsewhere. This patch is the problem and not whether we’re watering it. The key is in the watering. How we go about this practice is what defines our patch of grass. No matter where we go, our patch is, perhaps, the same. Some attributes and characteristics have been changed but the essence is the same: Us.

Stepping into Volume 09 of imprint, marks our third year. I am learning that this patch of green that we have been tending to for the last several years will mould, shift, and sculpt. This depends on how we water it and allow it to take its own shape. It has already happened in wonderfully unexpected ways. There is only so much structure or shape we can predetermine. Beyond that, it will absorb what it needs and reject all that is unnecessary. And perhaps, in this practice, we are changed. Our grass is watered as we water that of our writing, our image making, our practice, our magazine.

From light to dark, rigid to supple, new to old, there is so much in between that is bright and vibrant and unexpected. The practice of our magazine has focused on being open to what we receive; being open to deeply listening to what is shared; being open to work taking us to new journeys. This volume, and this year, will be no different. We will continue tending to it as we have done, learning along the way, from past seasons and present ones.

And yet, I know it will be entirely different.
But still.
It will be watered.