waiting

Illustrations by Pooja Saxena

I discovered birdwatching very recently, late even to the pandemic surge of city folk suddenly communing with nature. It started innocently: observing a never-seen-before bird in the neighbourhood park. Soon I was drawn to the colours and patterns on display. The shimmering iridescence of the tiny purple sunbird, the changing plumage of the pond heron, the stripes on a hoopoe, the inspired palette of the coppersmith barbet. Who knew there were so many shades of blue to be seen? Or better still, brown?

Birdwatching drew me into a vortex of art and literature, history and science. I shed my own preening, bright feathers, and embraced dull ones so I can meet birds. Now I fearlessly walk into muddy grass; an action so unexpected that it leaves my mother bemused. As my excitement about birds and birdwatching reached a fever pitch, I had a more solemn realization.

What keeps me birdwatching, more than anything else, is the lesson it has taught me in patience and quietude. No matter what the ambition, all I can ever do is try my best and wait.

Volume 09

clay | chlorophyll | crimson

Grass is green where you water it. LC’s words float along over Misch’s guitar. It’s a phrase that feels so obvious, and I’m sure those who tend to gardens know this more than most, but it seems to land more than before. The impact noticeable, memorable, echoing through my being. Perhaps we’re ingrained to think it’s greener elsewhere. This patch is the problem and not whether we’re watering it. The key is in the watering. How we go about this practice is what defines our patch of grass. No matter where we go, our patch is, perhaps, the same. Some attributes and characteristics have been changed but the essence is the same: Us.

Stepping into Volume 09 of imprint, marks our third year. I am learning that this patch of green that we have been tending to for the last several years will mould, shift, and sculpt. This depends on how we water it and allow it to take its own shape. It has already happened in wonderfully unexpected ways. There is only so much structure or shape we can predetermine. Beyond that, it will absorb what it needs and reject all that is unnecessary. And perhaps, in this practice, we are changed. Our grass is watered as we water that of our writing, our image making, our practice, our magazine.

From light to dark, rigid to supple, new to old, there is so much in between that is bright and vibrant and unexpected. The practice of our magazine has focused on being open to what we receive; being open to deeply listening to what is shared; being open to work taking us to new journeys. This volume, and this year, will be no different. We will continue tending to it as we have done, learning along the way, from past seasons and present ones.

And yet, I know it will be entirely different.
But still.
It will be watered.