the most beautiful thing in my life

Poem by Rohee Dholakia

​​This poem
eagerly waiting to prise
out of my conscious-
ness like the first time
 
we met and decided
                                 	this was it—
a halcyon time
our broken pieces making a full
                  	puzzle

But  today
 
I need to brush my teeth, make our breakfast.
Gilbert asks, “what is the most beautiful thing in your life?”
and I’d say you if you had time, language and the loss of it
is all I have.
 
I swish back into the kitchen
and wave at the time slipping
away
      	my voice muffled by the
tasks              	of 	the  	day
 
The day
is all I have—
 
the day dredging my opalescent life away
the day lost in a ravine of choices
the day blighted by “what to make?”
 
I mold my life into little
fr ag me nt s  of time
           	like clay
fertile clay keeping memories              
                                        	warm
                            	fuzzy
              	alive
To write is the most beautiful
thing in my life
whilst                            	life
                                 	slithers 
                                                 	away.

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editor's note

Volume 10

contact | shadow | fringe

I’ve been reflecting on the theme for our tenth volume, a lovely milestone that coincides serendipitously with the warehouse’s tenth year, and how it feels apt for the moment we find ourselves in currently. The theme straddles a threshold. The movement from this side to the far side. It isn’t inherently accompanied by an emotion. And yet, I feel it suggests a sense of hopefulness. 

This isn’t in a vacuum but is influenced by two events that concern themselves with a tremendous threshold: our atmosphere and the expanse beyond it. I am referring to the successful flyby mission around the moon by the Artemis II and the release of the film “Project Hail Mary” (adapted from Andy Weir’s novel of the same name). These two events, coinciding in this manner, serve less as random happenstance and more as a reminder, as Carl Sagan said, “The Cosmos is within us. We are made of star-stuff.” A reminder that everything out there, is also everything in here. It serves as a reminder for hope that as we resume our exploration of the darkest depths of the universe, we must take that strength to step forward from our own personal shadows.

Shadows can be freeing. There is comfort in creating, expressing, and working without scrutiny or pressure or expectation. It has potential for great freedom, movement, and discovery. However, when the driving force isn’t exploration then it can be crippling and lead to paralysis. In those moments, “coincidental” events like these can be arresting and provide a sense of hope that the next step is all that matters. One step at a time soon becomes many past an imposing threshold. As we gather momentum, pressure is bound to build. It is here, with changed circumstances, that the intention must persevere. Learning the rules, allows the impact of breaking them to feel that much sweeter, but that isn’t necessary. Acting from pure instinct allows for an innate expression to present itself. It is balancing this, instinct versus experience, that proves vital to take experience into one’s stride with child-like instinct and intention.

Our focus, at imprint and G5A, on independent stories allows this freedom. It is something we work to preserve so that the experience of ten volumes and ten years, respectively, does not weigh us down but lifts us up through the shadows and into the expanse. This is not easy but it is simple. When you default to curiosity and wonder, it isn’t a matter of ‘if’ but ‘when’.

We’re excited for Volume 10 and everything it will hold.